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I always thought I had talent.

Maybe I don't. Maybe people are just trying to be nice.

I wish they wouldn't. I hate getting my hopes up. I wish they'd just say it if it wasn't pretty.

I suppose my dream of being a fashion designer isn't really possible.

Now that I see it after Mum's comments, Achie's wedding dress looks impractical and well, half-baked and ugly.

Achie said it was pretty but then maybe she was just trying not to hurt my feelings. Maybe I shouldn't do my Maid of Honor dress, I might look weird and ugly.

I wish she said the truth.

I hate trying when it's useless. It's like doing work for nothing.

Hell maybe I should just give up my pencil altogether. I don't seem to have any talent for it anyways.

I could be those ordinary employees. I'd just be one of the people in a crowd.

Nothing different, nothing special.

I should really ask Achie to buy a dress for me...they have pretty dresses abroad.